I want to apologize in advance for the sob story. I fully recognize that my situation is entirely my own fault and I’ve spent many months of self-loathing and I’m finally making a throwaway account and posting here to ask for advice.
I graduated from Indiana University this past May with a business degree in Supply Chain Management (as well as Information Systems but I want to focus on supply chain.) I pretty much dicked around in college and graduated with a pretty crappy 3.1 GPA, no prestigious club leadership roles, and zero internships whatsoever. I was unmotivated in class and in the summers I didn’t put the effort in to network and get an internship so I always ended up working random summer jobs, including factory work, front desk at a hotel, and as an office assistant. Now, a full 6 months after I graduated college, I feel as though I’m unhireable and that I wasted the past four years and tens of thousands of dollars.
I’ve been working at the corporate office of a regional bank as a mortgage loan processer since June, but it sounds better than it really is. I’m just a temp and the job consists completely of data entry. Ever since last spring I’ve been applying for supply chain jobs but I never hear back. And I know it’s tough for a lot of graduates but every single one of my peers that I know of has landed a professional job or gone on to grad school. Even those like me who struggled for a while still told me how they would have several interviews with many different companies before finally getting a job, but here’s the really pathetic part: in 6 months of applying for entry level jobs, I’ve never ONCE even been invited to interview. That has to be pretty rare, right?
I’ve tried all the job hunting techniques. I’ve had my resume reviewed many times, I write cover letters, I reach out to HR reps and school alumni, I’ve applied to companies of all sizes and prestige levels and locations, etc. I’ve even looked up obscure logistics and manufacturing companies headquartered in 3rd world countries with locations hiring in the US, and even those don’t get back to me. I’ve heard a lot of pharma companies are hiring logistics positions like crazy in anticipation of the vaccine, and those don’t get back to me either. There was one local company I even had saved as a backup option for a long time because I had worked for the company as a summer job in the past and I have close personal connections to both the VP of HR and VP of Supply Chain, and well, even after reaching out to those connections and them both promising to review my application and put in good words for me, I never heard back from that place either.
I’ve heard the phrase that it’s a numbers game, and that persistence is key, but again, I’ve never even gotten an interview- 6 months without even making a dent. I keep telling myself that this will be the month I find something and start my real career, and now I’m not so sure anymore. I’m terrified that if I don’t find something by spring, all the fresh new graduates will flood the market and that’ll be it for me.
I always knew my crappy college record would hold me back from most of the better entry level jobs, but I didn’t think it would lock me out of the job market completely. I mean, I still graduated from a decent university, right? I’m painting a pretty bad picture of myself here and yeah my resume isn’t great but I’m genuinely a good worker, and a lot of people that know me well expected me to get hired right away and are surprised I’m still looking, which just adds insult to injury. I’m just looking for a chance to prove myself, but nobody seems to want to give me that chance. This has just been a very depressing time of my life, seeing all of my peers kick off their careers with great strides while I look ahead and worry that 10 years from now I’ll still be stuck in my hometown living with my parents working the same data entry job. After job searching for so long, eventually you just start to feel like you have no worth, you know? Between the constant job search and staying alone and indoors because of covid, I feel like I’m stuck in this endless purgatory state. Every day I dream of finally getting a positive application response, and how I’ll finally get to start a real life.
So if you actually took the time to read all that, first of all, thank you, I know it was a lot. And second, well, I know I said I’ve tried everything, but I’m sure I really haven’t, and I would be very thankful to receive any advice. Has anyone on this sub ever been in my shoes, or known someone like me? Is there still a chance for me to get hired somewhere? Or at this point is my only option to just cut my losses, apply for a warehouse position, and try to work my way up internally after a few years?
TL;DR 6 months after graduating college with poor grades and no internships, I’ve yet to be hired or even interviewed for an entry level position and I feel hopeless. I’m just looking for advice.
*Edit*: Wow, I just got home from my temp job and I'm reading all the comments right now and thank you all so much for the advice! I was worried I would be looked down upon but you all have been overwhelmingly helpful, I should have posted here sooner. A large consensus seems to be that my resume must be really lacking, so I'll definitely work on improving it as much as possible. I'll also keep applying. From the way it sounds, I'm not as hopeless as I thought and there are still a lot of options for ways to break into supply chain. Thank you all, it really means a lot.
I don't give anyone permission to post this anywhere else and all that jazz.
Hey guys - I'm back with another fun story of my past to give you all a laugh and for me to look busy at work. I've been MIA since I've been focused on house renovations and prepping to get licensed in another state for fun along with a toddler who can't stay out of trouble... so yeah, life.
So... leading up to this point in time my relationship with Holy Hypocrite (HH = MIL) consisted of me trying to be nice and pleasant but without fail I always did something wrong
for her to complain about me and I would tell my side to BIL/SIL-W to show them she's the issue. At the end of the day they talked so much shit
about HH to us, but never confronted her. They're all talk, no game but I genuinely thought it would all work out and maybe they would talk some sense into her and we bonded over how crazy she was.
SIL-W would always say "Well you're nicer than I would be. If she even did half those things to me then I would be so much worse to her than you're being" Okay so we all acknowledge that she treats me like complete shit? Okay cool... but again... I've done nothing to her specifically
yet I'm this "terrible" person. So, as always in the most of our relationship, I was to blame for her lack of a relationship with her son and I'm disrespectful but can't give any examples of how... basically I'm not of her faith so I'm terrible was the be all end all.
MIL would talk endless shit about me
to BIL/SIL-W and SIL-W told me so I knew how she felt and all the things she said even though she would later deny them. Looking back (and currently) it's obvious SIL-W likes drama (even though she says that she doesn't) and this was sort of her way to stay in the loop since DH and BIL have terrible communication skills. I like SIL-W, a lot, but I've taken huge steps back from her as it pertains to their family in present time.
You're probably wondering "Where the fuck was her husband during all of this? Was he defending her? Doing anything to set the boundaries with his mom? Anything at all?"
Well... to already answer this questions... ***crickets chirping*** DH didn't do shit to defend me. He was perfectly fine with me taking all the punches because he doesn't like conflict, didn't care to address his mom, and truly thought I would keep taking this crap like it would be a nonissue. I didn't want him to feel "pressured" to deal with it and I stupidly
thought he would do it eventually... but eventually was going to be never.
DH and I were engaged during this little fun story and starting to do wedding planning. BIL/SIL-W were engaged as well and they were getting married two months before us. They had a long engagement (3 years?) and we had a 14 month engagement so our time lines ended up overlapping. I know... I already know what you're thinking: bad idea. Yeah yeah yeah... it was, but tough shit. I wasn't pushing my wedding back an additional year because they chose to sit on their wedding, like not my problem. There was some "competition" for the weddings to an extent but we had completely different weddings (they did small destination and we did a large 170 guest wedding in the middle of the families) so it overall wasn't a huge deal, but I'm getting off track.
DH's little sister (LSIL from here on out) was obviously apart of both wedding parties but she was also under 21
at the time. So anything we did for our bachlorette parties, shower, and wedding had to take consideration that she was under 21, or so I thought and planned. SIL-W and I both have professional careers and we have to ask for time off well in advance so we had to plan everything out very far in advance for things to work not only for us, but our bridesmaids, and to not overlap each other to double book.
My girls/mom/myself decided to do my bridal and bachlorette all in one weekend since most of my bridesmaids were traveling from other states, and I wanted to make it as breezy as possible. I just didn't feel the need to have 3-4 weekends devoted to my wedding making it a huge
inconvenience because then it wouldn't be a positive experience for my girls who were also all in professional careers. We planned to go to the city and have two nights there, LSIL and SIL-W would only be attending the first night. Since I wanted to include LSIL we decided on a Saturday night, in NYC, we would go to a PG rated broadway play and do things that LSIL could do, per my "demand". I would like to say I "requested" it to my bridal party, but I didn't. There wasn't any other option as far as I was concerned... LSIL needed to be included so sucks to suck. They whined for a whopping 10 seconds and then sucked it up and started making plans around her lack of ability to get into a bar.
SIL-W did hers separately but planned the bachlorette leading into July4th weekend, also LSIL birthday weekend. So you would think
that marrying LSIL brothers, we would want her to feel super included
and important, right? Wrong. SIL-W refused to change the weekend and made comments that it was only her 19th (I think?) birthday which was nothing so she can get over it. We'll sing happy birthday to her but too bad sort of thing. She even went as far as to say that she wouldn't be doing anything anyway (LSIL isn't much of a socialite) so what would she be doing that was SO important she couldn't come? As for going out to bars/clubs? LSIL can stay at the AirBNB by herself, tough shit. UM OKAY....
So this brings me to my story....
My MOH reaches out to me and tells me that we have a little problem, LSIL told them on their group chat that she's not allowed to come to my bachlorette party anymore so they should take her out of the plans. Sends me the screen shots and all so I know what's up. In the text LSIL mentions that her mom won't let her come because according to HH, we would force LSIL to drink and get a fake ID to get her into places.
Just to fucking recap: we were having a PG rated Saturday night... in NYC... because I, the bride, said so... to specifically include LSIL. Had HH read the messages between the girls, that was made clear and there was zero inclination
that we would make her get a fake ID, let alone drink underage. These thoughts were all made up in HH's religious zealot head because she's against drinking (that's only for boozers) and once again, I'm a terrible person.
I reach out to SIL-W to confirm all of this and to see wtf is going on with her on that end of the family to gauge the situation further. SIL-W confirms that HH has been bad mouthing me and doesn't want me to ruin and taint her baby
, I've already tainted one of her children. SIL-W also confirms that LSIL has 100% of HH's blessing to go to SIL-W bachlorette party because, you know, she trusts SIL-W. Are you fucking kidding me?
How is it that I'm the one getting shitted on when I was actually trying to include LSIL while SIL-W didn't give two fucks about her?
So I was livid. I'm talking through the roof pissed. It's bad enough she talks about me this way and gets away with it, but to say these things about my best friends? Fuck her. Fuck her. Fuck her.
So insert DH(fiance at the time)... I told him that he will address it. I made it very clear that this was in fact, not optional. He's clearly uncomfortable with the idea but I don't care... it's fucked up and this was the straw to make me break and this was the hill I was going to die on.
HH deals with everything
through text... the whole family does... so you would imagine that he would text her to handle this? Oh no... this is the one fucking time
that he wants to deal with this in person, face to face. So I'm sure plenty of you are like "Wow that's awesome, DH is going to tell her off" .... no my friends this is him pushing it off to avoid dealing with it hoping I just give up. Here's the thing... DH just about never
sees his mother. This incident took place in the fall (early October) and he saw her previously in June and the next time he saw her was Christmas after this incident. Of course he won't confront her at Christmas celebrations because you know, it's not the right time or place.
Okay fine, I sort of agree but I also know the end game for him here.
So I sat there through their ridiculously long day of traditions where she wrote "From MOM-O" on all her presents to me... vomit... and played nice nice.
DH went home to hang out with LSIL for whatever one day in February (he never bothers to see her either) so I would imagine he had this discussion with her since this was the next time he saw her and it wasn't a major holiday.
I know what you're thinking already: DH didn't do it, did he. No Linda, he didn't.
So we're laying in bed and I ask him, "Did you talk to your mom about the comments she made regarding my friends and bachlorette party?"Him: "No, but I'll text her tomorrow, I'll talk to her about it"Me: "Don't bother, if you were going to text her then you should've done it months ago and if you actually wanted to handle it then you would've done it today. I'll take care of it"Him: *clearly panicking" "What do you mean you'll take care of it"Me: "You'll see" ... end of discussion.
So now on a scale of 1 to 10... I'm hot. With him, a solid 9 and with her, only about a 7 but I refused to let this go... you know... that hill I'm going to die on.. well I'm ready, break out the guns because mine is already locked and loaded. One thing about me that people just don't understand until it's too late is this: I will take your shit. I will hold that burden. I will deal with it. BUT fuck with my friends or family and I will light shit the fuck up. I will defend them and fight for them until the day I die. I fight for others WAY more than I will fight for myself. I'm loyal as fuck and HH fucked with the wrong people in my life and said shit that I won't let go. Eventually I'll stop taking your shit, but talking bad about my friends and family is a fast track to me being D-O-N-E!
So the next day arrives and I text HH confronting her about her comments, explaining that there was no backing to them, and furthermore confronting her about talking bad about me to BIL/SIL-W, but not having enough guts to say it directly to me.
Meanwhile: DH is freaking out
on me telling me "I better not text her". I'm laughing. Like seriously? Fuck off. I took her shit for SEVEN. FREAKING. YEARS. at this point in time and never once
did he stick up for me, the least he could've done is stick up for my friends and me over something that was black and white. So you think I care that he's upset? Not in the slightest.
I'm now physically laughing and text back "Too late"
So I know MIL got it because now SIL-W texts me asking how my day is going. I tell her something along the lines of she should probably stay off her phone because I just confronted HH and she's going to rope everyone else into it. SIL-W says she's already blowing up her phone so SIL-W starts responding to her.
Meanwhile... HH doesn't text me back... you would think a reasonable
person wouldn't turn the knife and call HH out on not texting back and let it be, right? Well, I was far
from reasonable and at this point, I'm fired up, so I text HH again. "How funny you can text SIL-W back and not me" and topped it off with essentially calling her chicken shit to confront me. HH texts back and says that she's at work and can't talk but will respond later.
So DH is at work, freaking out. HH and BIL start texting him... turns out I started a family war.
Well kids... it's been 3.5 years since that moment and I still can say to this day... I'm not sorry.
Next up: the family talk where it really went to shit
and I haven't had to fake it with her a day since.